Writing is my choice of drug.

She Let Go

Wed, 24 Oct 2012 12:25:40 -0400

Without a thought or a word, she let go.
She let go of fear. She let go of judgments. She let go of the
confluence of
opinions swarming around her head.
She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the
‘right’ reasons.
Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a book on how to let go.
She just let go.
She let go of all the memories that held her back. She let go of all of the
anxiety that kept her from moving forward.
She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it
just
right. She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it.
She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public
announcement. She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily
horoscope.
She just let go.
She didn’t analyze whether she should let go. She didn’t call her
friends to
discuss the matter. She didn’t utter one word.
She just let go.
No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or
congratulations.
No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing.
Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.
There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn’t good. It wasn’t bad.
It was what it was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go, she let it all be. A small smile came over her
face. A light breeze blew through her.
And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.
Here’s to giving ourselves the gift of letting go…
There’s only one guru ~ you.

I want...

Tue, 11 Sep 2012 12:14:35 -0400

to start blogging again. Get my thoughts down, to make sense of them all. One second at a time.

I know I’ve got to start. The very thought of refocusing on studying for the GRE scares me,...

Mon, 09 Apr 2012 18:34:35 -0400

I know I’ve got to start. The very thought of refocusing on studying for the GRE scares me, unmotivates me. Makes me crawl right back into my comfort zone where tests like this one never existed. F*** fear. I’m going in.

i-l-l-u-s-i-o-n-i-s-t: i love this so much

Mon, 09 Apr 2012 18:30:20 -0400

i-l-l-u-s-i-o-n-i-s-t:

i love this so much

Resurrection

Sun, 08 Apr 2012 14:41:34 -0400

Woke up this morning with such a grateful heart. To think that Jesus rose for the sake of me and all the others who believe makes me so thankful. To add to that, this is my first Easter as a mother, a soon to be wife. How can I not be grateful? So I got to thinking that I have a chance to be resurrected. To become new as a woman, mother, teacher. So many people are not aware of the significance of this day…I am aware. I am grateful.

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Sun, 08 Apr 2012 14:35:31 -0400

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Mon, 02 Apr 2012 11:43:40 -0400

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Mon, 02 Apr 2012 11:43:05 -0400

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it’s only Tuesday and I am already dreading back to work. I’ve contemplated all the...

Tue, 13 Mar 2012 05:43:31 -0400

it’s only Tuesday and I am already dreading back to work. I’ve contemplated all the reasons why I should not even get up from bed and leave my son all day…ugh

"Learn everything you can, anytime you can, from anyone you can - there will always come a time when..."

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 13:31:47 -0500

“Learn everything you can, anytime you can, from anyone you can - there will always come a time when you will be grateful you did.”

- Sarah Caldwell (via corona-borealis)

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Sat, 10 Mar 2012 13:31:18 -0500

I’m officially returning to work on Monday. I’d be lying if I said I was excited to be...

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 13:27:11 -0500

I’m officially returning to work on Monday. I’d be lying if I said I was excited to be returning, going back to my old routine. I don’t do well with routine. I am easily bored, distracted and overwhelmed. I’m not looking forward to the dramatics that come with the people and the occupation. All in all I am trying to make a not so good situation seem better than what it really is.

I am throwing myself full on starting tomorrow. I need a distraction or maybe two distractions to...

Sun, 26 Feb 2012 16:09:07 -0500

I am throwing myself full on starting tomorrow. I need a distraction or maybe two distractions to keep my mind busy and focused on OTHER things. Things that won’t make me cry in the middle of the day or have insomnia at night.

The 25 common words that should form the building blocks of a toddler’s vocabulary: -all...

Wed, 22 Feb 2012 15:37:26 -0500

The 25 common words that should form the building blocks of a toddler’s vocabulary:

-all gone

-baby

-ball

-banana

-bath

-bye bye

-book

-car

-cat

-cookie

-daddy

-dog

-eye

-hat

-hello/hi

-hot

-juice

-milk

-mommy

-more

-no

-nose

-shoe

-thank you

-yes

I think that...

Wed, 22 Feb 2012 15:18:00 -0500

No, I KNOW that I need a fresh start in every aspect of my life. There are times I tend to over think things and situations instead of being proactive and just making those moves that I know should be made. So I’m starting from scratch, at the beginning where I know I need the most change.

Physically- I need to feed myself. It’s been 6 weeks since my son has been born and 6 weeks since I’ve eaten a real meal. There are days where I don’t realize until late at night that I went all day without eating. I’ve been living on coffee and handfuls of m&m’s. Starting today feeding myself will become a priority.

Mentally- I’m all over the place. Over thinking/over analyzing every bit and piece of my life, my career, my soon to be marriage, my son…myself. Trying to tackle a thousand thoughts all at once all in a single day is leading me to insanity. Starting today I will become more conscious of my thoughts, where they are stemming from, and which ones to act on and which ones to discard.

Emotionally- I am a wreck. Of course my over thinking/over analyzing all aspects of my life are leading me to a state of confusion (at times depression). Tackling my thoughts will alleviate this emotional distress. Some thoughts just aren’t worth my time.

Spiritually- I lack. Last night I took my Bible off my bookshelf for the first time in a long time. Opened it and it felt strange and good at the same time. That I KNOW is the cure to all of my mental, emotional, and physical battles. So today I begin a Bible reading plan as part of my quest back to where I should be.

I have my hands full….

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Sat, 18 Feb 2012 22:05:46 -0500

The world is a lot bigger than you, I hope one day you realize that.

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 22:05:01 -0500

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Sat, 18 Feb 2012 22:04:08 -0500

ladykryss:

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Sat, 18 Feb 2012 22:03:21 -0500

I’m working on it :)

Sat, 18 Feb 2012 22:03:06 -0500

I’m working on it :)