Writing is my choice of drug.
Words are the cadence of my existence.
Words are the cadence of my existence.
No, I KNOW that I need a fresh start in every aspect of my life. There are times I tend to over think things and situations instead of being proactive and just making those moves that I know should be made. So I’m starting from scratch, at the beginning where I know I need the most change.
Physically- I need to feed myself. It’s been 6 weeks since my son has been born and 6 weeks since I’ve eaten a real meal. There are days where I don’t realize until late at night that I went all day without eating. I’ve been living on coffee and handfuls of m&m’s. Starting today feeding myself will become a priority.
Mentally- I’m all over the place. Over thinking/over analyzing every bit and piece of my life, my career, my soon to be marriage, my son…myself. Trying to tackle a thousand thoughts all at once all in a single day is leading me to insanity. Starting today I will become more conscious of my thoughts, where they are stemming from, and which ones to act on and which ones to discard.
Emotionally- I am a wreck. Of course my over thinking/over analyzing all aspects of my life are leading me to a state of confusion (at times depression). Tackling my thoughts will alleviate this emotional distress. Some thoughts just aren’t worth my time.
Spiritually- I lack. Last night I took my Bible off my bookshelf for the first time in a long time. Opened it and it felt strange and good at the same time. That I KNOW is the cure to all of my mental, emotional, and physical battles. So today I begin a Bible reading plan as part of my quest back to where I should be.
I have my hands full….