Writing is my choice of drug.

Words are the cadence of my existence.

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She Let Go

Without a thought or a word, she let go. 
She let go of fear. She let go of judgments. She let go of the 
confluence of 
opinions swarming around her head. 
She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the 
‘right’ reasons. 
Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go. 
She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a book on how to let go. 
She just let go. 
She let go of all the memories that held her back. She let go of all of the 
anxiety that kept her from moving forward. 
She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it 
just 
right. She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it. 
She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public 
announcement. She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily 
horoscope. 
She just let go. 
She didn’t analyze whether she should let go. She didn’t call her 
friends to 
discuss the matter. She didn’t utter one word. 
She just let go. 
No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or 
congratulations. 
No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. 
Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go. 
There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn’t good. It wasn’t bad. 
It was what it was, and it is just that. 
In the space of letting go, she let it all be. A small smile came over her 
face. A light breeze blew through her. 
And the sun and the moon shone forevermore. 
Here’s to giving ourselves the gift of letting go… 
There’s only one guru ~ you. 

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I want…

to start blogging again. Get my thoughts down, to make sense of them all. One second at a time.

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I know I’ve got to start. The very thought of refocusing on studying for the GRE scares me, unmotivates me. Makes me crawl right back into my comfort zone where tests like this one never existed. F*** fear. I’m going in.

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i love this so much
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Resurrection

Woke up this morning with such a grateful heart. To think that Jesus rose for the sake of me and all the others who believe makes me so thankful. To add to that, this is my first Easter as a mother, a soon to be wife. How can I not be grateful? So I got to thinking that I have a chance to be resurrected. To become new as a woman, mother, teacher. So many people are not aware of the significance of this day…I am aware. I am grateful.

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(via Schuyler Samperton)
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it’s only Tuesday and I am already dreading back to work. I’ve contemplated all the reasons why I should not even get up from bed and leave my son all day…ugh

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